ok so now for the full story. so on thursday we got to tennessee around 4:30 or 5 and watched worship because we miss bryant so much. or at least my mom does. i miss him too though. anyway. so saturday was the vow renewal which was nice. i already wrote about that. so then july 4th we had a picnic with our family who was up (or down) for the vow renewal and some of my great aunt's extended family. so anyway me and my cousin walekd out late and everybody was there already but anyway i went and sat down next to my mom and my almost aunt and uncle. then, i see this kid. he looks about 14, maybe a little older, probably not much younger. and i recognize him sort of, but the thing that sticks out to me is he is SO GOOD LOOKING! oh. my. god. seriously one of the best looking guys i have ever seen. seriously. but anyway that's not even the best part. so i think you know, i can't be liking this guy if i'm related to him cause that is just wrong. so i see him around, like we go for a walk down to the lot where my great aunt's son and his wife are building a house and i think it was his parents and him and his sister in the car but they stopped and talked for a few minutes and then i saw him out at my great aunts farm one time too. but then sunday it was the 175th anniversary of the alder branch church down the road from the farm and so we went. and guess what. YEP he was there. and looking as good as ever. so then i kept trying to look at him during the service and one time i looked back and he was looking what seemed like RIGHT AT ME. i dont know if maybe he was just looking at us as a whole group but it looked like he was looking at me. and so then we were taking a picture outside the church and lois (my grandmother) who was standing next to me said something like "i think the kid in the orange shirt is someone's son" i dont remember, but she said someone's son, except for she said an actual name. if you even got that. but anyway then she said "he's cute" and i didnt say it but i was thinkin "you're not kidding!" but yeah and so then we were standing in line to get food and i was like throwing my paper plate cause i was bored and thinking about you know him, and lois was like "that kid up there is throwing his plate too" and im like "yeah" and shes like "hes kinda cute too" and im like "not as cute as drew" (that's the kids name) and then i was like "i was really disappointed to find out that he was related to me" and shes like "oh its not close enough to matter, go ahead," or something like that but it was so funny. anyway then i dropped my plate and the cute kid in front of us staretd talking to me and i was like oops. and then i dropped it again and he was talkin to me again and i just picked up my plate and covered my face it was so embarassing. and it was so horrible. but funny. and so then the nest day we were shopping for wedding dresses with clair (my aunt) and lois told the story to clair and i was like "that was so embarrassing" and then somehow we got on the topic of drew and then lois is like "i heard he has a girlfriend. i think somebody said 'drew has a girlfriend' and i was like oh..." and i was like "oh its ok hes still cute and besides i wasnt looking for a boyfriend in tennessee" but inside i was like dang it! but yeah then i was all sad. and so now im sad. and i keep thinking about him.

and with my luck he's gonna find this somehow and read this and be like wow that girl is so weird and obessessed (which would be the second guy who thinks that) but yeah that would suck even worse than being depressed. wouldnt that be just great. and yeah i wish i could find out if he has a screen name or something. cause i want to talk to him. but anyway, i did more in tennesseee, but that the only important stuff. all the other stuff is just you know spending time with my family and all that. but drew is more intersting. now everyone knows my sad story. i feel so.. i dont know, immature maybe, being so crazy over this guy, but gosh he seems like so perfect. he seems quiet and nice and sweet, and of course ive like never talked to him but he just seems like that. and he is good looking.